Day 11: A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

In my 26 years of life, I haven't lost a lot of people to death. Death is something that is guaranteed in life but, not something anyone wants to deal with. Out of the deceased persons in my life, I would like to talk to my Grandma, I miss her so much.

The first person would be my Grandma. I really miss my Grandma & I think of her so much. She was the only Grandparent I ever had in my life so when she passed away, a hole was made & it will never be filled. She was hilarious yet, filled with odd & ends knowledge that she would tell us that we didn't understand at the time but, we understand now.

I remember the day she died. I remember where I was, what I was doing, & how I felt. It was February 13, 2000. Just 2 days earlier, I talked to my Grandma for the last time & it was a conversation I remember very clear. My Grandma knew her time was coming. So, in this specific conversation, she told me goodbye in her own way. I told her to stop talking like that because I didn't want it to be true but, at least now I know she was at peace with what was going to happen & she knew so, she got to say what she wanted to say to me before we'd never talk again.

Rather it's just a simple Hello Darlllllling or her just saying I love you, I would love to talk to her. I am grateful that she told me her time was coming. She saved me a lot of heartache from being surprised by the unknown. I still had that ache, I still do at times but, I am comforted knowing that she is still alive in our hearts. My Daddy looks just like her, starting to act like her to which, she always said "Now, you gotta watch out for them quiet people, you know your Daddy, he's kinda quiet." Ha!  

I love my Grandma so much & I am glad that she was apart of my life. Though she lived far away, it was nothing like taking the trip to see her in North Carolina & spending those 2 weeks a year, every summer. She will forever be apart of me & that, I'm thankful for. I know she is probably with her brothers which, both, she lost tragically. I know she is happy up in heaven watching me & my sisters & leading our way.